supermanlooveme

2009-08-17T01:20:00.005+08:00

16aug'09
out to kude kepang show at blk 314A.
didn't get to watch it fully.
due to some issues, it has to be stopped.
hate today pretty much. won't elaborate on it.
break down in tears? no.
then? since yu don't understand it, might as well, forget it.
my desire. just ignore it.
a man should NEVER raise his voice at a lady unless she truly deserves it.

2009-08-17T01:14:00.002+08:00

15aug'09
went out for supper with love, sharil nd palat.
actual plan is to go changi village.
but due to inconvenience cause,
we went to hougang plaza, joe's corner instead.
ever since ii carved for rojak,
so love brought us there. hees.
homed at 1am.

2009-08-13T01:51:00.001+08:00

seriously pissed off with blogger. grr.
nemind, will not be updating for the moment.
will be more active on multiply.
go fcuk this blog off! idiot.

2009-08-10T23:54:00.004+08:00

happy monthsary, love! (:

celebrated our monthsary at east coast park.
had a hilarious time with love.
goodness ii miss ecp!

love,
thanks for the day. yu fulfilled my wish.
aww ..ii love yu luh begok!

2009-08-09T01:17:00.003+08:00

guess my blog is collecting dust ..heh.
fine. i'm back blogging ..hees.
sorry for the late update. (:

tons of pic to be uploaded but kinda lazy to
do any editing right now. soon aye?
anyway, love condition getting better. alhamdulilah. ((:
yeah. his my superhero. hoho.

to all daily readers,
till my next post! ((:

happy Singapore day, people! yeah.
ii love my people. ((:

2009-07-28T16:05:00.005+08:00

back to sch life! yeah. ((:
anyway, while browsing through Aidil hp pic, saw above pic.
im attracted to the story behind it actually ..haha.
after sch, went for my n.e quiz which last for 30mins.
now, waiting for love to fetch me from home.
nd off for dinner at avcc. hees

2009-07-28T00:38:00.004+08:00

yesterday: 27 july 2009

went poly with love yesterday.
then off to pharmacy. bought new bandage nd some antiseptic cream for the wound.
while waiting for the poly to reopen,
we went slack. help love to clean up the wound.
hmm ..he had hard time to remove those stitches.
but he still could manage the pain. ((:
then accompanied love home.
slack under his void deck .
had an enjoyable time with this dearest gundu. heh.
nd homed at 10.

2009-07-26T23:36:00.007+08:00

I'M BACK TO UPDATE! ((:
smile wide wide my daily readers! hees.
been missing a few days. heh.
busy taking care of love actually.
his condition still unstable. pity hym so much.
went tonning with love last night.
help hym to clean up his wound.
while washing off the wound, tears rolled down my cheek.
aww ..cant bear seeing hym in pain. such a deep cut.
yeah. it super awful.

anyway,spending times with love is the best.
yeah. his my laughing gas, my best pillow to hug on, my great companion. ((:
though we started with a lot of differences nd weaknesses,
still we could make it through.
changes are made along the way.
tears that we shed, is worth while after all.
ii love yu deep deep! ((:
~we need no others.

**someone hacked my twitter account.
due to that ii couldn't update it through web.
ass right? yeah. ii've my own way to get yu on track.
once your i/p add are detected, yu will face your worse nightmare.
scumbag.

2009-07-22T17:04:00.003+08:00

love, met with accident yesterday afternoon.
his condition quite bad.
won't elaborate that much for the time being.
somehow, ii feel bad about it too.
i'm sorry love.

2009-07-17T14:39:00.003+08:00

finally, back in touch with lappy!
miss all online earthlings. hees. just updated all account. phew.
can't predict when gonna be the next post/update. heh.
keeping myself away from lappy actually.
busy catching up with studies. too long of self holiday so mai, WAKE UP!
N is around the corner. fcuk.
honestly, i'm not ready. grr. still slacking nd enjoying. duh.

2009-07-13T18:02:00.002+08:00

just done with my 2hrs of c.i.p ..hah.
simply annoying uhh.
my task is to clean up level 3 nd 4 ..fcuk.
but still, ii get it done.
thanks to shayu for being my companion. heh.
shayu took those pic of mine. gundu her!

**sch lack of cleaners! grr.

2009-07-09T22:14:00.005+08:00

just deleted previous post.
don't wanna add any dirt to my blog.
love always said that,
"whatever yu're not satisfied of, don't need to scream to the whole world. keep it to yourself nd i'm always here for yu"
so now, ii would just keep it to myself.
not for the public to review.

anyway,
didn't attend sch today. on m.c ..
temp: 38 degree. last check, an hour ago.
coming back to sch tomorrow though im still on m.c ..

to: my dearest kak nana
if yu reading this post,
just wanna tell yu how much ii love nd missed yu. things may changed, but yu'll never be forgotten.
yu're the best sis ever. every single day without fail,
yu're remembered. yeah. yu've move on.
but still, we missed yu lots. ((:

2009-07-08T19:41:00.003+08:00

overdue picture.

2009-07-08T19:37:00.021+08:00

It been a few days ii didn't update. kinda lazy. just to turn on this bloody laptop took me an hour. heh. just updated all account so now, blogging! back to sch life. in a few months time, N'level gonna hit the ground. damn. must make sure, im ready for it. gonna give the best. don't wanna get stuck any longer in secondary school life. had enough of 11YEARS wearing uniform! argh. time to get a change! next week will be the Eng oral follow by social etiquette workshop. goodness sake! ii hate it. gonna ransack those dresses in the cupboard pretty soon. to my advisory, get ready! yu're needed. hees. ((:

Anyway, love life is getting better. heh. gonna celebrate our monthsary this friday. yeah. been spending quality time with love almost everyday. we started with having a lot of difficulties understanding one another. gone through hardship all the time nd it always me whom wanted a break up but never he agree. but as time pass, improvement are made. though he had a bad anger management but he do make an effort to change. till now, his trying his best. thanks love. ((: as for now, both are busy with sch life. he gonna end his course soon and off to serve N.S ..damn. left a few more months seeing hym fetching me from sch. but nah! its okay. by the time his in n.s, ii will be no longer schooling. hehe. but that does not mean freedom for me! will keep myself busy during his away. taking care of my new born niece maybe? *insya'allah if his out before love went off.* lil niece will be my replacement lover. hah! opps. ((:
**still, ii love yu sakuah!

**should ii privatize my blog? ii hate of having someone informing nor keep track of my life. as ii know, she nd her family have a big mouth! hah! come on luh, 17years ii live with yu, ii knew how bad your family is. tried to brainwash others family member about my mum nd destroying my family bond. hah! so inhuman! yu deserve the attitude that ii been giving yu all this while. my mum isn't a queen control like what yu been saying to others! get it right okay! she doesn't even control me. like duh! i've my freedom so do my dad? hah. brainless! yeah. i'm a attitude girl. so? at least im showing off my real butt rather that ii pretend. sorry uhh. i'm not good actress like yu, makcik. ((: ~my blog, my say.

Happy monDAY! ((:

2009-07-06T08:38:00.009+08:00

Morning Earthlings ! ((:

woke up early today.
msging with love while his otw to sch.
welcome back to sch sakuah! (:
since theres nothing to be done, will be going back to sleep soon.
making this post a quick ones.
had a wonderful weekend with love nd co.
we went fishing.
picture couldn't be upload. ass.
hopefully soon aye?
yesterday was the most horrible fishing day.
non-stop raining! isk.
the day before is the best.
we caught more than 20 fishes. hees.
as for today, will be going out with love in the afternoon.
slacking at vivo maybe? (:

*shayu, all the best for your dates today. hees.
hope the dress suit yu the best. ((:

2009-07-04T09:40:00.016+08:00

currently, not in a good condition.
the pain strike again.
nd back depending on medication again. hmm.
had a sleepless night.
thanks to mama for being by my side throughout the night.
the hug nd kisses every mins she gave touched me off. such a bliss.
mama though yu might not get to read this,
ii wanna thank yu for the love that yu have given me.
its the priceless gift ever.
mama, ii realize that, mother love are irreplaceable.
*appreciate them while they're still around. ((:

yesterday, was the first day back to sch.
ii make it for the whole day. love fetched me from sch.
thought of having lunch together but somehow shits happened.
my love story is rocking. yeah.
ii have to admit it. we came from two different world.
why must ii be in that game, game of fool which yu started it first.
don't yu realize that they're the cause of our argument.
but yu simply don't wanna care. indeed, yu blamed me for picking up the calls.
yu expected me to do as yu say. pls luh.
ii can't simply ignore neither ii say those harsh words to them. that's not me.
whatever my decision is, don't keep me back.

2009-07-02T21:06:00.004+08:00

Synopsis:
is about the love between two people with different ideologies, a Muslim boy named Irham who lives a very modern, western lifestyle, and a muslim girl named Syuhadah who faithfully follows the teachings of islam in our modern society. When their two worlds collide, they faced issues ad confrontations that both of them have yet to learn and understand from each other.

currently, watching 'Syurga Cinta' ..
sweet nd romantic movie. ((:
okay, will make a quick post for today.
getting annoyed with uploading picture in blog. grr.
anyway, did turn up for sch. home stay since Tuesday.
on m.c due to eye infection. going back to sch tomorrow.
like finally.

*now then ii knew the truth. ily too.

2009-06-28T23:54:00.007+08:00

Our day:
just came back from fishing with love nd co.
tiring but ii enjoyed.
ii did fishing too! love brought along, 'amboh' for me. hees.
nearly 5hrs, but ii caught none!
love caught a baby stingray! grrr!
reached sengkang at 10 nd off to plaza to grab our late late dinner!
love had his mcspicy whereas me, mchicken.
we chat alot nd teasing each other. goodness.
nd off home at 11.

back to sch life tomorrow.
weird to be in that uniform all over again. dumb ass.

2009-06-28T01:08:00.004+08:00

Date with love! ((:
went T.M with love. thought of buying some dresses from S.R but none caught my attention.
had our lunch at pastamania since ii don't wanna eat fast food.
goodness, two days straight been eating at pastamania.
damn. fattening!
at first nak makan pizza hut but then tak jadi since its pack.
spent nearly 2hrs at tamp. super bored luh.
kkae, ii hate tamp. mendak gyler.
proceed to hougang for pasar malam.
craving putu piring luh!
at last, get it! heh.
love bought my fav choc, Eclair. ((: yeah.
at 8, both were stuck. love wanted to go Vivo but its too late.
so we just proceed to P.E ..enjoying the night scenery.
enough of the update.
lazy to elaborate more. super tired!
tomorrow, ii mean today(sunday), will be going fishing with love. hees. ((:

Friday:
day out with childhood bestie! ((:
went to vivo, had our lunch at pastamania since shika insisted to give a try.
bought dress nd mini donuts. superb! ((:

2009-06-25T21:16:00.008+08:00

J.b trip with love.

yesterday went J.B with love.
it is our 3rd trip to J.b. super awesome. ((:
everything's went well.
love was late but still we carry on as planned.
within an hour we reached Malaysia checkpoint.
straight to city square to change money.
bought some stuff nd headed off to Metrojaya then Angsana.
had our late lunch at Vivo, Metrojaya.
love ate the meatball spaghetti whereas ii had the creamy mushroom spaghetti.
couldn't snap much as my batt was low.
most pic was taken using love hp. ((:
we ordered chocolate brownie with ice cream as desert.
as usual, ii couldn't finish it up. haha.
continue our shopping at Angsana. bought quite a lot of stuff. hees.
not forgotten our both parents, bought some kueh for them.
was there till night.
nd home nearly 12 midnight ..gosh!

**thanks to shika for buying me cempadak which im craving for. ((;

overdue picture.
those night at shika's home.
shika, me nd her little bro, rudy making our dumbest look using my web cam. haha.
super funny! ((:

2009-06-24T02:09:00.003+08:00

jellybean,
yu're a great listener.
thanks for being there for me.
ii love yu deep deep.
((:

2009-06-23T05:13:00.009+08:00

since ii couldn't sleep tonight, and got nothing else to do.
so i decided to list my thought to this space of mine.
i'm hopeless.
hate to be in this situation, honestly. i'm tired.
can ii cry? scream to the world?
ii just need an answer to my question, when will yu stop with those play??
its haunting me.

received msg from A.
so ii called hym as what he told me to.
ii admit, A understand me the best. ii can't lie to hym nevertheless, put an act.
we had a long conversation.
its been quite sometime since the last chat.
*rindu kan? hah.
shared almost everything even bout the history.
*aww ..ii miss it alot.
but time flew so fast. we're at the end of it.
leading a good life with someone new.
its hard ii must say. but yet there's no turning back.
A, it doesn't matter if we lost contact again,
as long as i'm not forgotten. ((:
frankly, ii do miss yu too.

my silence are understood by hym.

2009-06-22T11:30:00.013+08:00

woke up nd received a shocking news.
thanks to that sender. ((:
anyway, just wanna make things clear.
ii don't care whoever,bestfriend or not, i'm not selfish to give a help.
why must there be a jealousy?
whatever that shared between us doesn't bother anyone right?
yes. i'm helping her sincerely hoping no return.
fine. ii won't comment much on this.
but don't involve anyone else nd get too far.
we respect each other privacy.
its enough to get it going.
so hazimah, if yu're reading this post, hopefully yu don't mistook everything.
yu might not like her being so secretive by not sharing
it with yu guys but trust me, sooner or later she will reveal it to yu guys.
just don't pressurize her. ((:
whatever that was written here are meant to be review.
no hidden motive, far apart from blaming anyone.
read nd get it over.

*i'm down.
too much things going through my mind. ii need a break.
thanks to love,
we going out for shopping soon. ((:

**annie said, 'mamai minah jiwang!'
because of my blog song.
isk. okay what. annie, tolong fahami isi hati ini. haha!
joking aje. btw, annie minah joget! ((:

2009-06-21T14:32:00.001+08:00

"There comes a time,
that love will change like stormy weather.
A sunny day will suddenly turn cold,
time will teach yu all yu need to learn.
But there's always gonna be a first time,
for yu or me might get burned."

2009-06-20T15:46:00.004+08:00

just a short post will do.
the little kid above named dayden.
he can't stay apart from me. following me wherever ii go. haha!
super cute.
wonderful chocolate cake nd cupcakes by kak As. ((:
it was meant to be a surprise. hehe.
kkae luh, won't elaborate much.
gtg,will update more when i'm back. ((:
bye earthlings!

2009-06-19T03:13:00.010+08:00

*wanni nd me.
eye still swollen. damn. thanks to contact lens.
no more ehh!

love story:
yes, I'm still attach to Ismail.
officially or unofficially, is only between us two.
though we may declare ourselves as single or what so ever,
but still, we're holding on together.
thanks to hym for being patience.
though at times, ii wished for a breakup, never yu let it go.
both of us do make mistake at times,
soon we realized it nd make things back to normal.
ii realize that relationship is a sweet responsibility which one will take.
can't deny that being into one is indeed hard.
the fact that everyone will go through this lovely journey, ii personally feel that it is such a bliss.
to be having someone who cares. who yu be able to show attention to. who listens to yu.
and the most of all who understands each and every of your flaws.
ii love yu sincerely.
no doubt. ((:

**somehow, ii do miss yu.
but love no more.

2009-06-17T23:53:00.004+08:00

back to blog again! heh. ((:
yesterday went slack with love.
suppose to watch the sunset but love was late! isk.
received msg at 6.10,
'baby i'm otw..sorie im late..siap mcm baby jugak..(:'
hah! tahu pon! hmmp.
super cute of love when we did some action action yang sungguh tak perlu.
teasing nd punching each other. heh.
so harsh but yet fun. ((:

today:
received a call from wanni.
asked to meet her at avcc.
we talked nd grab some food from macd.
something seem bothering wanni.
*wanni, no matter what, your girlfriends are around. be open, aite?*
after had our so called dinner,
proceed to cp with shika.
plan to watch movie at my house. bought some drinks nd stuff, off home.
shika passed me my belated bday gift.
aww ..so belated luh. ((:
thanks alot darling! ii like the card nd gift as well. ((:
so there yu go, a snap of it. the most special gift this year.
from my childhood bestie! ((:
nd ii post it specially for yu okay, mrs.wawan! hahaha! ((:

**ii hate tonight! my eye swollen due to the contact lens!
after the eye operation,
eyes get more nd more sensitive luh! hmm.
maybe going poly tomorrow with love.

2009-06-14T22:10:00.004+08:00

had family gathering plus belated birthday celebration. ((:
got a surprise birthday cake from the love ones.
aww ..super awesome! ((:
half of the cake was left specially for me. heh.
too bad, love isn't there.
but still, gonna share it with hym. hees.
nd not forgotten, today is bro 24th birthday ..hoho.
kkae luh, gtg. having family talks.
till next update. ((:
nyte earthlings!

2009-06-13T14:47:00.003+08:00

13 june, thanks mama. ((:
your daughter is officially seventeen.

yesterday:

went out with wanni to hougang mall.
grab our lunch at l.j.s ..
spent almost an hour. sit nd chat tak sudah!
standard, kalau darh jumpe, mulot mesti tak stop! haha.
**right wanni? ((:
we talked nd gossip alot!
especially about this one particular 'bapok'
heehe. ((:
then proceed to shika's house.
wanni left some of her photo shoot clothes nd off we went to cp.
walk all around cp nd decided to slack at kopitiam!
hahaa.
shika nd me bought ice cream.
so tempting luh!!
while enjoying the temptation, we did some planning for the upcoming gathering.
back home almost the closing of kopitiam. haas.

today:
just turn seventeen.
no big deal. nothing to be proud off. no party.
to girlfriends nd boyfriends, thanks for the upcoming gathering though we couldn't make it today,
but still, ii appreciate it alot. ((:
see yu guys soon! *stick to the theme colour.
thanks to those msges, calls nd wishes. ((:
love yu guys!
thanks mama for brought me up. pampered me with wealth nd happiness.
i loove yu.
will update more. ((:

2009-06-08T14:29:00.007+08:00

yesterday event,
went to wedding reception at Jurong West with sis instead of family gathering.
sudden change of plan.
with no heavy make-up nd simple dressing will do.
anyway, they had a simple deco. but the most funniest part is that there some dangdut dancer.
err, simply annoying.
slack at abg sham's lorry nd cam whoring. ((:
thanks to mp4 for being my companion throughout the stay.
make a move 3hrs later. isk.
went macd for supper with sis.
back home at 2am.
thought of updating this bloody blog but just too tired plus theres something went wrong.

yesterday night were so horrible. will not commenting on it.
but those people whom simply can't get rid of believing in superstition,
can yu please stop it?
yu're inhuman. doesn't deserve any respect.
didn't yu realise that yu're hurting your own blood??
get this clear, if ever death nor separation happen in my family,
yu will face up with your worse enermy.

**2day left. thanks to love. ily.

2009-06-06T19:46:00.002+08:00

welcome weekends! ((: heh.
just woke up from my nap nd decided to blog earlier for today. hees.
woke up at noon due to some msges nd missed calls.
yayat wanted to meet me for lunch before he went for meeting at 3.
since mama nd dada was out to nenek's shop, plus there's no food at home so ii agreed.
set time nd place, off to shower.
again, i'm late! ((:
he waited me for about half nd hour?
hees. sorry aye?
so we went for macd at avcc.
the nearest as its already late for hym.
bought double cheese burger.
as usual, ii couldn't finish it up. heh.
then slack under my void deck while waiting for his friend.
home at 3.
thought of continue sleeping but too tempted to karaoke since dada on the dvd. damn.
spend 2hr karaoke-ing then off to bed. hees.
anyway, ii can't stop laughing when love msg-ed me,
asking about 'congkak'.

love: baby...can i ask u something?
-what?
love: u know what is congkak?
-of cause ii do.
-whats wrong with the congkak?
love: no..i asking aje..one day wanna play tgt?
-huh? why out of sudden??
love: for fun lah..we never had sumthin lyk diz b4..y nt try it out? badminton ke..
- .......... i'm phobia in congkak, will never play it uhh.
love: y??? opah tido wad....
to be continued.

hah! out of sudden congkak topic came out.
wondering what's in his mind. haaha.
sometime, he just too cute, what a sweetheart! hees..
enough for today.
gtg, helping mama to cook for tomorrow event.
will be having family gathering nd kenduri for arwah uncle jum at mama yah's house ..
take care earthlings! ((:

*4days more.
**ii still love yu, jellybean! though ii might not say it. hees.

currently, twitter normal layout is having technical problem.
it doesn't appear in my blog.
so gotta change another layout AGAIN!
so fcuk up. hmmp.

2009-06-05T22:36:00.003+08:00

had malay oral followed by eng.
damn it uhh.
2hr break in between. super long!
after had fried macaroni for breakfast,
went to watch the guys play rugby.
so rough. isk.
baby, lucky yu're not into rugby. ((: heh.
while watching,
shayu nd me did something stupid.
we played with nichola's vibrator nd sleeping bag.
hehe.
it when the boredom strike ..heh. ((:
after eng oral, went cp with jia en nd shayu.
accompany jia en bought swimming suite then went banquet for lunch.
had fun eating at banquet as something sweet happened between this couple. hees.
anyway, ii ordered cheese fries nd chic macaroni.
but ii just could finish 1/3 of it.
the rest, shayu nd jia en helps to finish it up. hees.
while waiting for both,
ii created a sauce.
mixer of tomato+chilli+lemon sauce. heh. ((:
*pic above.
anyway, jia en bought this set of dish which include a lemon sauce.
it taste so awful luh.
then headed to library, borrowed some books nd back home.
as updating this post, having my hot choc on bed. ((:
more to come kkae? nyte earth lies! ((:

*5days left.
**jellybean, i'm still in love with yu. ((:

2009-06-04T21:33:00.001+08:00

-Take a bow
The flowers are faded now
Along with your letters
They will never
See the light of day
‘Cause I’ll never take them out
And there’s no turning back
It’s for the better
Baby I deserve
More than empty words and promises
I believed everything you said
And I gave you the best I had.

So take a bow
‘Cause you’ve taken everything else
You played the part
And like a star you played it so well
Take a bow
‘Cause this scene is coming to an end
I gave you love
All you gave me was pretend
So now
Take a bow.

The future’s about to change
Before you know it
The curtain closes
Take a look around
There’s no one in the crowd
I’m throwing away the pain
And you should know that
Your performance
It made me stronger now.

Well it must of been sleight of hand
‘Cause I still can’t understand
How I could never see
Just what a fool believes
But the lies they start to show
Tell me how does it feel to know right now
That I won’t be around
So baby before I put you out,

So take a bow ..

2009-06-04T20:16:00.004+08:00

went for lunch at Banquet with sidekick.
nothing much we did today uhh.
hairi called ask to meet hym but still, just too lazy!
to akai nd anep if yu guys read this post,
wanna appologise sincerely. couldn't make it for today.
i'm not in the mood.
alot of things bothering me. just not in mood.
next time kkae? ((:
won't update much. gonna sleep soon.
having oral tomorrow.
nytes love lies!

ii just don't understand whats going on between us.
its my mistake afterall.
yu deserve the trust but i'm just too ego.
i'm sorry love.

*6more days nd i'm still here.

2009-06-03T22:00:00.004+08:00

i'm freaking pissed off today.
mum just can't stop nagging since just now.
goodness sake!
wondering how dada can tahan with her for almost 26years.
hah!
it all started from a phone call by this 'irritating person'.
just don't know what he has commented about me till mama gets mad with me.
boduh uhh!
to that 'person', can yu stop bothering about me?
ii thought yu have your own life right?
just what yu did say before. so?
don't bother about others uhh.
ii didn't make your life miserable, so why must yu?
buzz off nd put your attention nd love to others but not me.
sorry, ii don't need it uhh.

**7days more to go.
will it still be the same?

2009-06-02T23:47:00.003+08:00

overdue pic-the punggol scenery.
pic with shirley nd anep was taken today.
won't elaborate much.
damn tired.
will update more if ii want to. heh!
nyte earth lies! ((:

**8more days to go. still counting on.
-ily.

2009-06-02T15:33:00.009+08:00

welcome back JUNE !!! (:

yeah! june is back! hoho.
pack with birthday boy nd girl including mine! haha.
just finish editing the blogskin. heh.

yesterday;
last min plan, meet shirley for dinner at banquet.
bought oreo cheese cakes since ii craving for it. then went slack.
supposingly, meeting hairi but then lazy!
then this anak cine wanted to go downtown but then cancel since anep willing to meet us.
met anep at plaza, slack at macd.
eat eat eat nd chat.
home at 11.

as for today, will update more at night, aye?
gtg, bye! -loved.

2009-05-31T22:54:00.008+08:00

those were the pic for last saturday from downtown to changi beach.
didn't snap much pic at theme park. as im not in the mood.
won't say much.
left the pic to be reviewed.

p/s: yu were suppose to be there with us.
but shits happened. hmm.

bought this Thomas nd Friends cake since sis craving for cakes.
aiyah. pregnant lady luh!
anyway, ii hate this new blogskin.
will change it soon. ((:

to this anak cine,
wei! hees. thanks for those msges, aite?
your care nd concern really touches me. ((:
thanks for the time yu have for me. appreciated.
though sometime ii couldn't be there for yu,
but still yu never fail to be there for me ..
aku taw, ko confirm drop by my blog ..hahaa.
so this post specially for yu anak cine! haaha.
it might be short nd simple but
at least theres a thought for yu. heh. ((:
anyway, hope yu last long aye?
all the best gyler! hees.
-ily.

2009-05-29T18:56:00.004+08:00

so sleepy luh today!
sis came at 5am. nd she dragged me to wet market at 6! nak mampos? isk.
ii took a nap for awhile nd woke up at 7.
getting ready nd off at 8.
bro in law drive us to houg ave 8.
we walked the whole part of the place to search for wet market as sis need to but some herbs.
yang ade, fairprice. so we went off.
next place, kovan. abg ipar aku nyer pandai,
darh taw kene corner masok carpark, dher gy jln teros. darh terlepas. hmmp!
since he lazy to make a u-turn, he drove us to serangoon.
nampak mcm best cause the pasar seem full. dalam hati, confirm byk makan.
dgn semangat nyer masok pasar tuu.
jalan the whole market, macam suar! none of it got malay store! semue cine! soyal.
patot larh takder satu pon muke melayu! cekik darah betol!
perot darh uh bunyi drum roll!
so lastly, bro in law decided to go plaza aje.
otw there, dorg due salah kan aku-'darh lamer tinggal sini pon tak taw pasar maner'.
soyal! tak bersalah sey. korang pon satu!
pagi pagi bute tanye aku, darh taw first thing in my mind was, BREAKFAST! tak gune korg tanye.
reached plaza at 9.
went to the market. sis bought the stuff for today's dish, rendang! ((:
yeah. me nd sis cooked rendang. hees.
then went for breakfast at KFC ..
hah! nih tak perlu disuruh beli, aku darh gy beli dulu. isk.
darh lapa gyler! nasib baek tak kene gastrik.
as usual, ii bought twister american, bro in law had same as mine but the original recipe,
whereas sis ate the platter meal plus side order, harshbrown nd honey biscuit.
biase luh, she eating for two. (:
while eating, me nd bro in law kept comparing between macd nd kfc breakfaast.
haha. kecoh. but then we choose none uhh. both are prefered.
then walk around plaza before headed home. the whole day been busy karaoke with them.
darh penat karoake, me nd sis starts to cook. si boncit tuu, maen lappy aku. mcm biase jugak.
then at 3 we done with everythings.
fall asleep while msging love. aww ..sorry baby. ((:
nih pon baru bgn.
since theres nothing much to do, so decided to blog. heh.

as for tomorrow, love having soccer tournament.
hoping he would be alright with his leg condition. so worried but yet can't say much.
his passion nd interest, so go ahead then.
willl be going for family day at downtown with sis nd bro in law.
love joining us abit later after his soccer.
will update more tomorrow aye?
-loved

anyway, had a horrible night yesterday.
won't mention much on it.
felt guilty towards love. hope love would understand with my situation.
sorry for being harsh towards yu.
ii knew, my words hurt yu. i'm sorry.
dear, thanks for the patience in me.
ii appreciate a lot.
ily,jellybean.

2009-05-28T23:19:00.003+08:00

tiring day ii must say! phew.
woke up early at 7. received msg from that someone asking me for breakfast date.
*macam tahu aje aku craving for macd breakfast. haha
thanks ehh to that person.
tunggu org tuu nak bgn, sampai tertido balik! haas.
promise to meet at 9.30 but then,
ii woke up at 11.30! ((:
breakfast darh over pon! haha.
sorry ehh. hees.
one hour later baru meet. as usual, im late again. hehe.
so had our lunch at avcc macd.
ordered mcspicy meal with ice tea whereas partner bought mcwing.
semangat org tuu upsize ice milo to large! haha.
just because tak boleh tahan pedas!
darh tahu pedas abeh order, mangkok!
each bite ade aje pause to drink. super funny uh!
finally ii could finish up 3/4 of my mcspicy! hahaha. :p
okay pe. rather than ii ate 1/4 of it aje, betul tak syka??
haha. she's my victim whenever ii couldn't finish up my burger. hehe.
**sebab yu takder luh ii eat sampai habis. hahahaa. ((:
went slack for awhile at avcc rooftop nd went home at 4.
continue cleaning up my room before went to cp.
bought my facial wash then cabbed down to plaza.
thanks to kasya for accompany me buy those food. hehe.
pity hym for waiting half an hour. ((:
takper, ii did treat yu drinks as a repay. heh.
bought some stuff, head off to palat's house.
reached there, help out palat's mum doing some house chore.
pity her, she sick.
thanks to my sotong hitam for sending me home. ((:
though sometime ko nih irritating gyler,
suke sangat menyekat aku sampai aku irritated,
but still yu never fail to put a smile on me. ((:
sayg sotong hitam! ((:
now, having hot choc on bed with lappy on lap. to those msges/calls that ii have not answer/reply,
so so sorry. got no mood.
will get back to yu guys tomorrow kkae? gonna sleep soon.
nyte love lies! ((:

2009-05-27T19:17:00.002+08:00

okay, i'm done with it.
wasted one hour just to watch that stupid movie.
should use it to sleep instead.
so boring uhh.
later mama nd dada going out. won't be following ..
lazy mood.
staying home with annoying brother.
will be sleeping definitely rather than see-ing his face. damn.
today, love had his soccer match.
did msg hym though it kinda late. sorry love. ((:
do come back in full piece aye? ily.
kkae luh. nothing much to update about.
nyte earth lies! ((:

more active in twittering than blogging.
so, don't expect any daily updates from me.
update depending on my mood. ((:
-loved

2009-05-27T18:01:00.003+08:00

**synopsis from the dvd: after being involved in an accident,
Natasya had a dream about a girl named, Baizura.
Natasya is determined to discover the truth about her. Since waking up from a coma,
Natasya is haunted by creepy images of evil spirits that can only be seen by her.
This causes a lot of trouble for her husband, Kamal,
as he doesn't believe in superstitions.

just finish bathing nd now, watching 'jangan tegur'.
dada just bought the dvd.
im not really keen to watch it luh. mama yang nak sangat tengok. isk.
it seem to have the same story line as 'J.P.B' ehh? a bit aje.
this movie kan, sound effect aje lebih.
padahal, the scary part tak luh setakot maner pon. isk.
kkae luh, will continue later. wanna finish up the movie first.
((:

2009-05-26T21:53:00.008+08:00

yu can never know whats hidden in me,
till yu discovered it.
stories unlocked, secret will entangle.
hold me tight if
yu meant not to let me go.
walk away if
yu meant not to stay.
make this game easier.
as ii said, ii won't make it hard for yu.
each step nd behaviour that been given,
speak thousand words.
all yu need is, sit nd review.
started with a stupid mistake made by yu,
things got worse between us.
ii admit, my love towards yu is changing.
yu cause it to be this way.
yu had no initiative to make a change.
yu may say its over nd got nothing to do w her,
but love may stay,
perhaps, growing day by day.
people go, memories stay.
yes, ii still live with those memories.
nd will never forget my love stories.

'to have but not to hold'

**just a short post to end off today.
night earth lies! loved.
welcome wednesday! ((:

2009-05-26T17:54:00.007+08:00

hey dearest earth lies! ((:

back to update again.
getting lazier to update actually.
more active in twitter. yeah.
kkae kkae. gtg now. going dinner with family.
will update more once im home. hees.

2009-05-23T20:54:00.004+08:00

hey earth lies! ((:
so sorry for not updating. just too lazy luh ..hees.
yesterday meet up with hairi. miss my sidekick alot! haaha.
received a call from hym asked me out for breakfast at kfc ..
so woke up though kinda lazy. bath nd dress up ..took cab to plaza.
his already there waiting for me. haaha.
we ordered twister American nd waffle w scrabble egg.
darh lame tak jumpe kan, so we had long long talk uhh.
he super funny luh! ((:
been craving for vanilla ice blend so hairi get it for me.
thanks uh. ((:
then find place to sit nd continue story telling ..
went home early as im too sleepy.
spent at least 5hours with hym, its enough. hees.

as for today, hmm ..
being receiving calls ask for date today but have to reject all.
super lazy luh.
with the weather, so hot! isk.
ordered canadian for lunch.
had baked macaroni sausage whereas sis gets the shepherd's pie.
nd to dice, aku really really miss ko pon.
its nearly a year since our last meet up.
will meet up soon kkae? ((:
hady, im sorry to reject your invitation.
just no mood to dress up uhh. haaha.
then, bestie called ask to meet her at cp.
so yeah, siap siap then keluar. at least dekat so takper. haas.
bought some stuff then went slack ..
hady called. talk for awhile. he super cute nd caring luh. hees.
will update again kkae? gtg. ((:
loved.

2009-05-23T14:42:00.003+08:00

my blog is dead! damn.
ii miss blogging uhh!! ((: will update soon, but not now!
gtg, meeting bestie at cp now! ((:

2009-05-17T22:50:00.018+08:00

Updated! ((:

those snap shot ..

J.B trip - lunch at KFC, angsana

punggol end - night scenery

hah! ii miss blogging. here's the update.
been spending quality times with love.
nothing much to do, so ii drag love to punggol end.
miss the scenery actually. hees.
super nice with the night breeze. hmm ....
not forgotten the trip to J.B with love ..
reached larkin around 1+, then took cab to angsana ..
didn't take much pic, mood swing.
*love, ii bet yu know the reason. hmmp. don't spoilt my day again, okay?
only some during our lunch at KFC, angsana.
thinking of experiencing the diff.
goodness! the KFC are far away diff from local ones.
they had a bottle of chilli sauce on each table then in packets.
**hmm ..anyone home out of chilli sauce, can just have it.
they've bottles of it neatly arranged ..haas.
we bought zinger nd fish fillet meal add on wedges.
guess what?
errr ..the meal comes with wedges instead of fries!
dumb me! we had three plate of wedges luh! the worse part is,
theres more nachos nd mayo than the potatoes luh!
eeee. thanks love for finish it up. ((:
nd ii just ate 1/4 of my fillet.
cause, it turn up not a fillet but a chicken!
****
continue shopping again.
then took cab to city square, next to m'sia check point.
actual plan is to go Metrojaya shopping centre but some how,
something unwanted pop up along the way.
won't mention it.
so, just did window shopping at city square.
back home at 5 ..
overall, fun but annoying. hmm.

at night, went to sis hm. spending my weekends with her.
nearly to mid-night when im on my way. accompany sis do some groceries shopping
but im busy snapping! ((: as always.
ouhyah! love nd me going holiday this june.
thought of going Bangkok but .... not safe. maybe K.L?
shopping! ((: yeah!
more updates. loved.

at last! twitter is back to normal. ((:
love my twitterettes!

2009-05-10T12:21:00.006+08:00

Mother's day feat Anniversary! ((:

M-O-T-H-E-R

"M" is for the million things she gave us,
"O" means only that she's growing old,
"T" is for the tears she shed to save us,
"H" is for her heart of purest gold;
"E" is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
"R" means right, and right she'll always be,
Put them all together, they spell
"MOTHER"
A word that means the world to us.

If I knew as a child what I know now,mum,
I probably wouldn't have made things
so hard for you ..
I would have understood
that you were looking out for my best interest.
even though it may not have seemed so at the time.
I would have known how difficult it is to let go,
to stand back and let someone you love
learn from their mistakes.
I would have realized
how fortunate I was to have a mother
who was always there for me,
even after an argument,
even after I'd said things
I shouldn't have.
While it's too late for a lot of things
it's not too late for me to tell you
that I appreciate how loving you are,
how giving you've always been
and that even though
I may not always be good at showing it,
I love you very much ..

p/s: mama
ii know how often ii took yu for granted
when ii was growing up ..
ii always assumed yu to be there
when I needed yu ..
and yu always were.
But ii never really thought about what that meant
till ii got older and began to realize
how often your time and energy were devoted to me.
yu brought me to this earth.
nine months, carried me in your womb with no regrets.
so now, for all the times I didn't say it before,
thank yu, mama.
ily.

Yu're the thought that starts each morning,
the conclusion to each day.
Yu are in all that ii do,
nd everything ii say.

You're the hand that's laced in mine,
nd the coat upon my back.
My friend, my love,
my shoulder to lean on.

You're my silly, mature, caring,
thoughtful, bright, and honest guy.
The one who holds me tightly,
When I need to cry.

You're the dimple in my cheek,
the ever-constant tingle in my soul.
The voice that makes me weak,
the happiness of my life ..

squid,
no amount of tragedy can tear
or break this love ..

Time has healed our many wounds,
but has not erased the memory.
But we'll hold on,we'll stay together.
We will get through this ..

Though we are young and still learning
about ourselves, our world today.
In my heart, you'll always stay ..

As days go by, as time progresses,
we will change, mature, and always grow.
But as we grow, as we reminisce,
there is one thing I will always know,
Love is patient, love is kind,
and what the loves express is true ..

change my twitter layout.
it looks suck uhh.
but nemind, its for tempo since
the old layout is having technical problem.
will back to normal once its done.

2009-05-09T19:23:00.009+08:00

guess what?
ii woke up damn late today. haaha.
final wake up at 5pm? isk.
yesterday reached home at 1am ..bathed then ate some durians cake.
half way through msging with love, ii fall asleep. hees.
sorry love! ((:
till now, im yet to bath. hees.
no plan for today so will just stay home.
while clearing up my picture folder, saw this picture of me nd dam.
goodness sake, ii miss those time! *ii bet shayu pon! haaha
was taken at esplanade bridge, the place where we used to chill at.
lots of wonderful memories we had.
label hym as 'anuar zain spore version' as its his favourite singer. haha.
dam really has the talent in singing.
everytime with hym, for sure without miss,
he would sing 'my baby you' nd 'keabadian cinta' specially to me. hees.
but, its all memories.
okay luh won't talk about it anymore.
tomorrow mother's day,
family will be going to mama yah's house to celebrate the day.
will not be following. *personal reason
may be out with love then ..
will update more.
loved. ((:

damn. twitter is having problem! boring!

2009-05-07T20:46:00.004+08:00

"i won't give up my love for u..i got worried when u didn't reply..
i sat and think back,why i'm over react..maybe i'm too foolish to make those mistake.."
-received at 8.17pm.

loove,
Feelings that once were hidden,
are now expressed to yu ..
Days that once were stormy,
are now the brightest blue ..

Times that once were lonely,
are now filled with pleasure ..
All that once was mine alone,
are now things we both treasure ..

Nights that once were cold,
are now comforting and warm ..
Fears that once were very real,
are now gone with the storm ..

A heart that once was broken,
can now finally mend ..
Dreams that once were longed for,
are now all coming true ..
The love ii once thought was gone,
I have now and forever in yu ..
p/s: ily, ismail. no doubt.

*when yu feel alone,
without me by yourside,
just look at the spaces between your fingers
nd remember that's where
mine fit perfectly .. ((:

2009-05-07T19:01:00.004+08:00

super bored today.
had English nd math paper ..
released at 12.50 nd took cab home.
kaki maseh sakit uhh.
nih semue pasal case semalam ..
lazy to story about it.
blame love for that! hmmp.
anyway, whole day been staying home, play lappy till now.
nothing much luh ii did.
thought of going macd for dinner, craving for the mcChicken uhh!
but then, lazy!! ((:
what's the use of having macd delivery?!
stupid mai!
so, ii will just call up then.
update more later. ((:

2009-05-06T23:04:00.002+08:00

watched sunset today.
though still feeling much weak, but ii insist to go.
nothing much fun.
kinda pissed-off.
reached home at 9, bath, had my dinner, and on lappy till now ..
won't say much, watching senario movie in Y.t actually ..
till next post, nyte earth lies!

switching off my bloody hp.
ii need silence.

2009-05-06T00:16:00.007+08:00

ii can't say, go.
freedom is no longer mine.
nevertheless, i'm dead in your love.

2009-05-01T22:38:00.006+08:00

can i just be away?

went to e.c today ..something unexpected has took place.
nd will be going J.B tomorrow ..
but will update more tomorrow instead, mood break down.
ii need a rest of mind.
nyte earth lies! loved.

2009-05-01T00:10:00.003+08:00

reached home at 11.40 today ..nd i'm super sleepy now. swear! ii need rest. going e.c with love in the morning ..so need to sleep early! ((: nyte earth lies! loved.

love,
should we give more space for each other?
ii think we should.

2009-04-29T23:42:00.005+08:00

this is the time of my life.
ii fall in love with a guy named, ismail.
along the way for the passed few months, obstacles keep falling against us.
argument, misunderstand never fail to make us apart.
but still, our love is too strong.
though there's some people are against our relationship, still we going through it without regret.
love,
yu came nd wake me up from my worst nightmare.
yu're the pillar of my strength,
nd ily for that! ((:
thanks a million love!

exam period!!

was late actually. haaha. then, dada send me to sch ..hees. kkae, today ii had my eng paper followed by geography paper ..hmm. get permission from mr.muru to be off 15mins earlier as ii have to rush down to late uncle jum's funeral ..hais. his last day ..ii don't wana talk about it. hope he rest in peace ..anyway, meet love at hougang interchange then cab-ed home. ii need to get change. then, went for lunch. today, ii dragged love to go jalan kayu to had our lunch. hehe. ii just miss the chocolate prata larh! bought the prata nd some food for asyraf 's mum. head down to asyraf's home. slack for awhile then went home .. ((:

deeply in love with my boyfriend.

2009-04-28T23:01:00.002+08:00

farewell to my uncle ..in memory.

a day to be remembered. got a call from nenna in the afternoon ..was shocked to hear that uncle jum passed away in the morning. innalilah. couldn't believe that his gone. he such a healthy/strong man ..hmm. bath nd cab-ed down to changi mortuary. mama couldn't take urgent leave, whereas dada meeting me at hosp. reached there, everyone from dada's side were there. then, ii took the courage to see the corpse in the mortuary though I'm afraid. haaha. hug dada along the way ..anyway, hosp food are damn suck luh! isk. won't say much, tired of typing. tomorrow, dada gonna collect uncle jum's body in the morning ..mama nd me will proceed there after sch. kkae kkae, nak tido nih. nyte earth lies! ((:

ii miss my supermann much much!

2009-04-27T21:46:00.006+08:00

26july-Aladdin fading away?

just took my medicine for tonight ..but still, can't sleep ..
was browsing through my folder nd saw the picture above ..goodness.
suitcase of memories.
those were the times ii with tawfeiq ..
freshly in mind, it was taken on 26october in the bus 51, on the way to east coast ..
celebrating our 1st month anniversary.
there's a part of it that ii will never forget, its when the surprises he made.
in the play was: shayu, apple pie, eera nd azree ..haaha.
*so clever of them trying to surprise me but then, ii could guess it out. haaha.
*mulot korg darh luh kecoh!
but end up, the surprise do turned up well. ((: appreciate your effort.
the big pooh are still kept safely in my room, sorry, couldn't safe the rosses.
anyway, that day we had a lot of fun.
he brought me to my favourite makan place, lagoon! ((:
we enjoyed the whole day eating seafood, sitting by the sea, nd making some stupid wishes!
*it doesn't matter at which place yu been, its the memories that matter the most.
anyway, won't elaborate much luh. let bygones be bygones.
between us, it's over.
thanks to tawfeiq's family nd my family too for the approval on our relationship.
the blessing nd trust our families gave, never we misuse.
but it fated, that we are not meant to be together ..
i'm sorry.
those memories nd the green everlast watch we bought, are left to be reviewed.
thanks aladdin for that lovely journey ..

now, ii craving for seafood in lagoon! damn.
especially the sotong with hot cook rice! yum yum yum luhh!!
it a must to drop by!
hmm ..but, sape nak gy layan aku nyer gyler nih ehh? *wondering

2009-04-27T20:44:00.008+08:00

changed blogskin again-updated! ((:

when the sun set, my rainbow will disappear ..

hey dearest! miss blogging! haas. finally, i'm updating it today. ((: so yeah, did nothing much today. woke up nd saw love msges. opps! ii forgotten to get back to hym. was asleep after taken my medicine ..haas. sorry ye? replied his msges then bathed, had my breakfast, took medicine again nd something bad happened! damn. ii stepped on a wood inside the toilet! gosh. nd it cause my leg to bleed non stop! goodness sake! bloody painful. isk! texted love nd he was super angry as ii being so careless. *kene marah pulak. isk. sayg, ii know yu worried, but its just a small incident. i'm fine anyway. ((: love insisted to come over, but ii reject. don't want to burden hym luh. furthermore, love injured his both knee after the match. yesterday night met love, nd his condition super terok. with both knee been bandaged, hais. hmm ..can't say much. soccer are meant to be injured luh. guys nd soccer-can never be separated anyway. *love, get well soon kkae? kkae kkae, till next post. tired of typing. haas. nyte. ((:

2009-04-20T22:58:00.004+08:00

hockey national team won!!!

i'm super tired now! gosh.
just came back from sengkang stadium with hairi, aizat nd shirley.
watched sapp, from hockey national team having tournament against khalsa team.
the score was 4-0! NATIONAL team is the best however. good displine, good stamina nd very alert! yeah. before that, hairi, me, aizat, shirley nd sapp when slack at avcc roof top. took pic + some candy pant poses by hairi! haha. suit hym luhh! annoying sapp! tak abis abis he angkat me! isk. everytime ii teased hym, he will grab my hand nd carry me away. he very ganas luh! *biase uhh, budak national semue ganas ganas! hmmp. sapp left first as he has to do some warm up with the others. we came an hour later ..bought some food from macd then we headed to stadium. at 10.30, we went off. hairi, aizat nd sapp walked home with me. along the way, sapp keep disturbing me. damn. *aku serik nak kacau nih mangkok lagi! penat asik asik kene angkat by hym! waduh! reached home, on lappy, nd now i'm blogging. goin bath soon. medicine, later! gona msn with hairi, aizat, sapp nd shirley afterward. hoho. nyte earth lies!

2009-04-18T03:30:00.003+08:00

16april

updated!!
hah! at last update blog. i'm bored now, couldn't sleep. damn.
nothing much ii did today. been sleeping the whole day ..
woke up, call love, bath then web cam with nisa ..hahaha.
ader aje yang menyebok interframe(palat nd sotong hitam)
was shocked when palat's mum asked my permission for love to sleep over her house ..hmm.
she wanted love to stay over her house tonight.
ii agreed though today we supposed to ton.
call love to inform hym bout that, at first he didn't want to.
but ii insist. *nemind. next time kkae, sayg?
hmm ..tomorrow, plan to go airport or maybe swimming with love.
but yet to be confirm. love knee hurts after the match. hmm ..
will update again. ((:

ii falling again.
day by day, ii getting weaker.
ii hate the medication!
can ii stop from taking it?
ii wana lead a normal life again.
but, the pain is killing me.

2009-04-15T22:35:00.006+08:00

update! short nd simple. won't elaborate much. lets the picture do the talking .. ((:

2009-04-11T10:27:00.007+08:00

today, stay home.

mood break down. dada nd mama going tamp later ..but, won't be following though mama insist. LAZY luh. sorry mama. today, baby having soccer match ..all the best, aye? do come back in whole piece ye sayg? (: going to sleep now. damnly sleepy. next update, unsure ..haas. loved.

supermannLOVEme

FINALLY! ii changed the blogskin. pheww!
yesterday night, went out to r.p. met shayu, nizam nd mr.Chine ..was excited upon see-ing nizam-reason: he own an ORIGINAL video of the white tigers killer in s'pore zoo!! damn. nizam was one of the witness when the incident took place ..at last, got to watch the full video. super funn but scary. isk. shayu left home earlier. left me, nizam, mr.Chine nd shirley ..slack till 11, send the both guys to the bus stop, then went home.

couldn't sleep the whole night, then this particular annoying person called me ..hees.
accompany me throughout the night. hahaa. thanks gyler. ((: talked crap, shared some lame jokes nd his grandmother's story. terpakse dengarkan ..hmmm.
ended the conversation at 5am! talk for about 4hrs. aiyoh.
squid msg me. while msg-ing, something pop-up. thought things would be much better, but it turns me wrong ..hais.

10april - suitcase of memories
sayg, do yu realise that we're drifting apart?
since that day, everything's changed.
i'm sorry.
didn't mean to end it off hastily.
ii still love yu deep deep.
happyANNIVERSARY too love ..

2009-04-09T16:55:00.005+08:00

donut donut donut!

the donuts were superb!
credit to my sis, step mother-in-law.
she bought it fresh baked from jakarta. haha.
*waduh, enak banget!
ii ate the white almond, blueberry nd choc almond. hmm ...yummy. (;

to my love,
sorry for my words. ii don't mean to hurt yu. shit do happen.
i'm still holding on to the promises.
ii love yu deep deep. ii swear.

in momory ..

on 6 april, went to watch sunset area my house with squid. (: super fun. we talk nd share some fantasy story-as usual. *berangan ((: didn't took much picture. busy talking. haas. at 7, squid wanted to send me home but ii refused. wanted to slack cause i'm bored alone at home ..so we slack till 9 ..

i'm in love with my boyfriend.

2009-04-04T16:33:00.004+08:00

supermann, i'm back! ((:

yeah! finally i'm home. home sweet home! ii miss my bun(bantal busuk!) !
hoho. today sotong had soccer match at hougang-a warm up match for this Sunday event.
was shocked to know that he injured his rib-one of the player from the opponent team has purposely kicked his rib. f***.
pity sotong, whenever ii ain't around watching hym play soccer, alot of injuries took place. aiyoh! sayg, be more careful, aye? will company yu more often, haas. ((:
maybe going to accompany sotong this sunday. but yet to be confirmed. hees.

ii love my supermann deep deep. ((:

being missed by me; shayu, shirley, apple-pie, sharil, mamat, hairi, zainal, joejoe, wak, along, dilip, rafie, raiz, mr.golkeeper nd not forgotten, mySUPERMANN! ((:

2009-04-04T16:01:00.008+08:00

Till Here.

do yu think ii got time to entertain such thingy? damn. waste of time.
biase luh org kalau darh buat salah maner nak admit kan kan kan? if that person didn't folow my way, why when ii started using, 'superman', 'chocberry', 'yu' then he/she started it too? logic?
as far as ii concern, my 'yu' is one Nd only. within the person that ii know, none using 'yu' luh.
knp dari dulu tak taw nak pakai 'yu'? knp baru sekarg nih? nak tunjok prangai fanatik kepe? whatever larh ehk.

though I'm gonna BE 17 SOON, for your guys info, I'm not that proud to step on club even if ii pass the legal age. come on luh, why must talk about club whereas he/she still have a long long long way to go? isk. tak paham luh dgn budak budak baru nak naik nih. hmm. tak terniat pon luh nak jejak kan kaki. tak taw pulak ehk kalo ko ader niat nak masok ..hmm. laen kali, kalo nak beboal step fanatik, fikir dulu. takmoh asal boleh langgar. *tersesat jalan boleh bertanya, tersasul kata? hmm ..fikir fikir kan larh ehk.
-terasa?? buzz off.

get this straight, its not me whom prolong this matter. ii no longer bring up this issue on web, so why must yu? don't because of your unreasonable words/statement, things got worse.
yu did admit, we has the same blood, so why must yu drag on? come on. i'm not a small kid to play a game with. guess its better to fight over for my right then fight over stupid/childish stuff-over boys? right? haas. do get things right ya!

-my blog, my say.

2009-04-03T21:49:00.006+08:00

ii miss my boyfriend.

sayg, i'm fine here ..no worries. ((:

thanks dear for the daily love msges ..hees. been missing yu badly too sayg!
do take good of yourself. wana see yu fully in good condition, aite? ((:
anyway, ii do miss my bunch of crazy, loving orang-orang giler too!
will catch up with yu guys soon! much love. *muwaks

2009-04-02T22:39:00.003+08:00

i'm in love with my boyfriend!

sayg, i'm sorry for making the decision to be away.
didn't mean to leave yu intentionally.
its was the toughest decision ii ever made.
though we're apart, never in a day yu fail to say 'i love u',
reminds me of my routine,
my medicine,
your love nd care meant so much to me.
baby,
ii love yu deep deep. ((:

2009-03-31T12:35:00.006+08:00

my blog, my say.

ii just don't understand with some people. paparazzi! not only girls, but guys too can own a big mouth. pity. isk. its my blog for me to write nor say anything that ii wish. no intention or motive referring to anyone, otherwise stated. so to those people, takmoh nak terasa ehk. if ko terase my post is referring to yu or your dearest friends, tu ko peh pasal. tak tertulis pon yang aku referring to ko. not happy with any of my post, get it straight to me. tak perlu nak cakap belakang. tak nak cakap dpn dpn? takper takper. will make your life much easier. will activate the comments so that yu can make as much as yu wish, aite? (:

*don't think that ii didn't know my blog is your daily newspaper. wanna update on my life story kepe? tak perlu larh ehk. masing masing have their own life. ii didn't bother your life, so why must yu? mind your own world luh.

*to apple-pie: this post is not a reply to your post. ii type this out is to pour out my anger over something ..don't worry. nothing to do with yu sayg. ((: will update yu more about this when we have the time, aite? much love. hug.

2009-03-30T22:21:00.011+08:00

monday-30march

i'm over yu. i love hym.
And on days when I'm not somewhere among the clouds, I lay quietly beside you, night after night, never breathing a sound. That is my secret.. You're all I need.

sunday-29march

kak wanda's wedding! ((: went with shayu nd shirley. they accompany me. thanks darlings! ((: lend shirley my kebaye ..for that day she became 'wanita melayu' ..haha. cute kepe! while on the way, wan called. isk. *aku tahu ko rindu aku. bertenang ye? (:
its been quite sometime since the last meet up. miss his lame jokes nd craps luh ..then he fetch us at the bustop. hug hym!! omg. makin kuros si tiang nih. nd yet to believe this cousin of mine gona be 20 this year! omg. darh tue ehk ko wan! but yet, to serve n.s ..hmm. bad thing for being the late comers, miss seeing kak wanda. damn. the bride just left before us. aiyoh. spent for about 2hours. blame wan for stopping me from going home! hmmp. damn bored luh cause im not that close to dada's side ..appreciate that wan nd shasha accompany us. we sat at a bench. slack nd smoke-time ..*exclude me anyway, ii miss my apple-pie. but she seem busy that day so couldn't talk much with her. got some stuff to settle wit her ..hmm. reached home around 7, shirley nd shayu slack at my home. we ordered macd. super hungry. *bukan tak makan kat sane, tapi tak brape sedap so makan siket aje. while i'm busy using lappy, this two ladies can't resist from camera. aiyah! so they keep snapping around with the stupid faces. haha. peace!

Saturday-28march went to shayu house to take baju mama. before that went r.p with shirley baby ..ate at macd. damn hungry! then buat kecoh tak sudah sudah! haha. shayu came. eat fries nd we shared some hot story about this one annoying guy. hmm ..just can't be bothered luh. fcuk off larh ehk. LIAR. bertenang ye shayu? ((: btw thanks to shayu for the surprise chocolate cake! hees. ii love it although ii hate chocolate actually. haha. at first wasn't tempted to eat it cause of the look. but end up, the taste was awesome! great job. ((:

2009-03-28T08:15:00.009+08:00

27march- SHIRLEYbaby, ily. (:

There is a miracle called Friendship
that dwells within the heart and you don't know
how it happens or when it even starts .. But the happiness it brings you
always gives a special lift and you realize that
Friendship is God's most precious gift ..

to the chinese+malay lady above, this post is for yu.
shir, thanks for the help.
yu're there to console nd comfort me. whenever ii lost my way, yu guide me through.
yu brings back my feet to earth.
aku tahu, kau confirm drop by blog aku, that is why ii write this.
ii may not mention it personally, but ii just want yu to know, i love yu chine! ((:
(fav phrase,'diam larh sial' ..haha)
NOT forgotten,,
my dearest candyBOO, one of a kind! ((:

A day with atok feat happiness! ((:

finally today ii could spend time with atok personally! hees.
went c.g.h alone. brought lappy along since wanna show atok some video in YouTube but then,
theres no wireless coverage in the ward. boduh.
reached there around 1.30 ..
atok was smiling upon seeing me. (:
he was all alone. he seem bored but luckly your cucu kesygan come to the rescue! hahha.
salam nd hug atok. aww ...miss hym so much.
had some conversation with hym ..
atok-> datg dgn sape?
me-> sorang larh tok. belom kawin .. *laughing
atok-> tak bawak matair? *wink
me->isk. mane ade matair. single lagi nih. sape larh nak cucu atok nih, kaki darh tak lawa ..
atok-> alarh nanti baik larh tu. atok kan ade. atok sayg cucu atok.
me-> *smiling
alalala ...pandai ehk atok pujok? hmmm. anyway, ii make friends with the nurses. haha.
super funny. they keep asking me about my VS bag indeed
we shared some shopping tip. hehe.
had my lunch with atok on his bed. we talk nd laugh on our own world.

atok shared some gossip with me. haha. kecoh!

he talked about the nurses nd doctors. isk. atok atok.
ii was stunned when atok told me something about my family. hmm.
was shocked to get know about it luh.
to that aunty nd family, don't think ii didn't know what yu're trying to do.
hey bitch! nothing better to do uh?
it will be much better for yu to take good care of your daughter, 'the spoilt brat'
rather than playing such game on us. simply annoying!
yu deserve no respect!
watch out your step! believe in karma!
it may turn back to yu. ii swear.
if ever separation happens in my fam, will make sure yu face the same.
being there for nearly 3hrs.
went home at 4 but headed down to usual port to meet the rest. been missing them.
eventually, something unexpected happened.
credit to shirley for clearing up the mess that 'guy' made ..((:
it was your luck nothing happen to yu anyway.

sotong, i love yu. (:

2009-03-26T19:30:00.008+08:00

ii hate the guy named, ZUBIR.
nd his girlfriend, nuradlina.
please larh ehk. we have our own life to bother.
ii need no paparazzi to update my boyfriend about ii do nd what so ever.
not happy with me?
get it straight to me. ops. forgotten. pengecot mcm ko mane berani. haas!
what the use of having hp then? boduh.
thanks ehk.
and baby, if yu think by shouting at me over the phone can make me feel guilty,
hah! it won't work luh. it just makes me hate yu more.
*ii will play the game which yu started.
for the moment, mood break down.
will update more later ..hais.

2009-03-25T14:16:00.004+08:00

i'm deadly bored! went to sch just now. but then, kene send home. what a life.
teacher said my eye can be worse if ii didn't take good care of it. thus, ii was ask to go home. hmm ..
my eye is yet to recover. still painful. at any point of time, tears may just roll down my cheek. nothing could be done. have to tahan luh. the eye cream is my superhero for the time being.
m ii too sensitive?
ya. at this moment, i m. especially, about my leg. ii can't stop others from talking over it, right? but please luh. don't make use of my condition as a topic in your conversation, can?
at least ii do have a clean leg before.
for temporary, it might look awful with the infections scar.
but this is just for a moment.
get it?
the doctor said it take months to disappear. so whats the big deal?
at least it will disappear than not. hmmm. to those peope, say whatever yu wish nd like.

your words won't kill me neither.

ii love my sotong.

2009-03-24T08:22:00.006+08:00

GET A LIFE, CAN?

ii just don't understand with some girls who doesn't has ORIGINALITY. ii been observe her for quite sometime. don't think ii didn't know that yu're following my style. stop it can? firstly,yu followed my 'chocberry' name which ii created. secondly,'supermanloveme' ..damn. nih pon ko nak ikot?? ehk. takmoh ingat aku tak taw ehk. thirdly,my trademark in msg,'yu' .. please luh girl, have your own life. don't get stuck to other's butt.

yu just started your teenage world, so start anew. there's no point of yu following others cause at the end, yu will be label as 'copy-cat' ..even if yu wana show off to all your annoying friend, don't act to be like me. yes. i'm a flirtatious, bitch nd what so ever but at least ii don't go for guys. get this straight. there's a big gaps between yu nd me. stop all this nonsense luh. don't tried to be someone different. cause yu just don't suit to be like one.

ii know its just a small matter. just a word nd nothing much to fuss about. but im just not satisfied with this girl. she's not a stranger. perhap she's someone whom has my blood in her. tried to control my anger in front of her but, ii just can't. i'm not a hypocrites. thus, ii seldom face her up whenever she around ..

2009-03-23T22:11:00.005+08:00

eye operation

had an eye surgery today. my most nightmare. ii thought it won't be that painful but it does ..been crying non-stop. thanks to dearest shayu for accompany me through the phone calls ..ii was all alone. dada came a few mins before the surgery. the mr.doct was super funny. we chat throughout the process ..we even joke around. *mangkok punye doctor!
overall, the surgery is the most memorable experience. ((: had two days m.c ..buzz to bed soon. my vision is limited right now. nyte.

2009-03-22T23:45:00.020+08:00

22march- dinner gathering.

nothing much ii did today. dada woke me up at 8pm. going to hosp fetch mama then changi to makan ..its been quite sometime didn't spent time with cousins so decided to follow dada .. ((: but didn't eat much- cheesy mushroom roti john with lemon tea. joke nd chat chat with mama yah. she's so cute luh-funny! we keep laughing without stop ..aiyoh hees. lastly,we slack at changi beach for awhile ..home @ 11.30. bath,blogging while msg-ing with squid. buzz to bed soon! (x

21march- picnic@p.r.p feat Umar birthday

super fun!! ii was late luh. hees. suppose to meet @ 12 but then ii came at 12.30 ..mangkok. kene lecture by-SHAYU ..maaf ye? ((: semue darh sapai except for wak nd zubair. they meeting us at p.r.p ..so bought all stuff,especially cake then we proceed at 1 ..the tiramisu cake was superb!!! credits to the triple 'S': shayu,shahrul nd shirle. ((: actual plan is to go C.G.H. meet them up afterward but then ii just can't miss any fun with them so,didn't went c.g.h ..sorry mama. hees.

**otw to p.r.p ..
*umar-candid.
*SHAhrul ((:
*the arrival.-shirley,maii nd shayu.
*maesya @ r.p ..shirley was covered by shahrul.

**while guys busy with the tent,the ladies busy with the poses .. -as per usual ((:
*me with the b'day boy.
*with umar nd nal.
*the ladies with the guys.
*credits to the guys fot the shelter! ((:
*sabo time!

**cutting cake time! -tiramisu,yummy!
*2 in birthday.
*with zubair. pathetic faces.
*swing in the rain. photographer,shayu.
*shahrul the ikan buyong,sleeping.

2009-03-20T21:38:00.005+08:00

DOZE OFF
was at home all alone. finally could sleep at 11am and woke up at 9pm. damn. shirley called. ajak ton. so yah,going ton later on. super bored. some how,ii need some space. irritated with someone attitude. whatever luh. as usual will snap snap more pic nd will update again. anyway,saw this pic in shirley blog. hees. was taken last month-ii guess. ii do miss mamat. hmm ..but we can't be the way we used to be. everything has changed, i'm sorry. its not that ii didn't tried, but ii just can't make it. love just can't be force,right? ii don't blame yu for giving me the cold shoulder. ya.ii deserved it.
*missing someone.

2009-03-19T04:13:00.024+08:00

Update nd Upload ..
cant sleep nd was resist to blog ..hees.

19march-your words

wake up due to shayu msg,reply then sleep back. finally,woke up at 5 pm ..bath then get ready to meet shayu at r.p ..going to consult doctor again. just cant stand it anymore. poly pills nd cream bring no better. perhap,it turned worse luh. isk. shahrul,is nd shayu meet me at the clinic. as usual,they were late luh. damn shocked that the bill was $60-3pills nd two cream ..but ii dont mind as long as its effective. hees. ate at K.F.C ..had fun. s nd shahrul kcoh sgt sgt. hmm ..then shirley nd papan came. kecoh kecoh kecoh for awhile then procide to usual port-slack. hmm ..something that ii didn't unexpected,happen. hais ..sorry shahrul. yu shouldn't witnessed everything. sorry for showing the tantrums. ii hate to prolong the matter ..

*ii m ego,hard-headed nd flirtatious,so? hate me? buzz off then. in conclusion,your promises means nothing to me. after yesterday,ii took every single words yu said,seriously. even if its unintentionally. don't blame me for the changes ..

*shahrul nd me. he was talking nd ii just snap it! (: maaf ye.
*lazy to entertain shahrul,so snap snap.
(pic for the day)

18march-4ann2 chalet:downtown east

went to class chalet at downtown east ..super fun luh! ii miss them alot!! *guys,thanks for the concern aite? dont worry. i'm getting better! will keep up with yu guys soon. ((: anyway,ismail accompany me. supposingly to be shayu but she can't make it. thought of tonning but then,condition still isn't stable yet. hmm ..reached there nearly to 7. my dearest chacha fetch me at the entrance. upon see-ing her,ii was like,adik!! nd we hug hug! damn miss my lesbian partner luh. adlin were there too. the interesting part is that they welcome me with the shocking face. haha. long time no see nd they were like oh goodness! hui ting said-'hey! ii thought yu never come sey. tried to call yu just now but can't get through. miss yu.' hehe. SUE! damn. ii miss my gossip-partner! haha. hug hug her nd then usual-gossip! haha. but sekejap aje. she busy with the bbq stuff. gona have a loooong chat with her-soon! haha.*sue! there's alot to update nd share with yu.
went ii entered the room,everyone was like-"maiiii!!!" hahaaahaha. cute luh. they being asking the reason absent for a few days. waduh! the only way to explain is by showing my fcuking ugly swollen leg! expected reply-"omg! eeeeee! what happen sey?" the famous phase for that night. haas. then took alot of pic with the pple. didn't eat much. must kene pantang! takot bengkak lagi. while eveyone's having fun,chacha busy using my lappy to update her blog. kecoh! ((: in conclusion,ii enjoyed the day even just awhile. ((: adlin tagged home with us ..
*james,joey nd sue.
*with aidil.
*adlin nd her lil boy. hees.
*chu ling nd joey.
*with joey nd suesue.
*the peeps
*with roger
*rui en nd me.
*ben ben.
*mango cake for the march baby's
*adlin nd me. we kept snap snap snap pic!
*the kecoh geng-can xing,chacha,me nd adlin.

*candid snaps.
*promote 'pringles'.
*look weird with cap. haas.
*Everlast watch!(blue-is,green-my)

2009-03-16T02:43:00.013+08:00

*late upload-slacking after the soccer match ..

I'M BORED!!
need entertaiment! hoho. at last soulmate called me. she willing to accompany throughout the night ..yeah! and we did some LADY'S talk. hees.
while on the phone,we talked about serious/happening thingy thats going on right now.
hmm ..yeah.its damnly serious. *mangkok,its only for your ears.
some girls just don't act like their age. they might seem old but they're just too young for their age ..haas. its funny to see how girls react over a guy ..hmm. share some gossip with soulmate just to stay awake ..anyway,pity shayu. she got to know that she have to act infront of everyone just for that person gain ..*pissed off
credit to shahrul. is my lady a PUPPET for a show?? hah!
or its yu that just can't admit that yu're a loser! damn.
*still wondering whose that rascal
was irratated while we're on the phone,she kept msg-ing hym! aiyoh.
nemind,ii just cant bother as im busy typing this post. haha. BETTER luh!
i'm glad that eventhough alots of thing happened around us,we remain OPTIMISTIC. ((:
suddenly this gundu said,'I MISS DUMB!!'
alamak! she remind me of hym. *ass
eventually,ii missing hym too. its been sometime ii didnt contact hym. my fault for not replying his msges ..sorry dumb dumb. i've my own reason for doing so. will call yu some day,aite. TO shahrul,thanks for not going with the propose idea. don't play prank on my lady,kkae? or yu will face me up. ii swear.
anyway,#### called me. hees. had fun talking to hym after sometime. he wanted me to finish up the song which we've written together. soon aite? while on the phone,he played gitar nd i'm like reflash back all the times nd memories we had. superb touching! i'm supposed to call hym back but ii didnt. opss! sorry ####. (:
zubair! the ring which has your name nd shayu is with me. opss!
shayu left it in my bag. nd ii didn't even knew that yu guys has a ring symbolizing your love ..aww. sweet! but that's a past which will remain forever. perhap,will it ...??
shayu plan to go for a picnic this saturday ..with all the peeps. but yet to decide where to go. isk. maybe e.c.p or pasir ris park ..yeah! gona snap more more photos!!! hees. ended the conversation with soulmate then buzz to sleep .. ((:

*SHOULD SHE GIVE HIM A SECOND CHANCE??
kept insisting that she should ..

2009-03-15T23:42:00.003+08:00

Sunday-15march

*when lady wear jeans,this is how we react ..hmm.
*me nd bby syka ..((: sweetly dressed. *wanie seem lost! -cute kann?? heeswoke up at 3 today ..super late for syka bro's ceremony. hmm ..but ii could make it at least. ((: bath,ate lontong that papa bought for me then get dressed nd meet syka,wanie nd ana at multi-purpose carpark beside syka's home ..sat there nd we chat chat chat-as per normal. less than a hour with them,ii went home. before that went to syka house to salam ibu. syka insisted me to at least grab a bite but sorry,i'm full/no appetite. papa nd mama went out. thought of following them but mama doesnt allow due to my leg condition. its yet to recover. *boduh. anyway,got a bad news today. atok just admitted to hosp. hmm ..hopefully his fine. *atok,ii know yu're a strong superman! ii believe in yu! ((:* gona visit hym one of the day ..ii miss yu atok!

Saturday-14 march
*when we're bored ...

*mamat nd me .. *while otw home ..... snap snap snap !!
blogging! hmm ..yesterday went to woodland with-squid,shirley nd zainal. wak waited for us there ..watch mamat training kuda kepang,super fun! but scary luh. squid was beside me at all time. damnly scary cause the music that they play causing the dancer to get out of control. goodness sake! was there for about 2hours aje.then went slack with the others ..rushed home at 10 as fam planned to go e.c.p to chill up but then last min cancel due to uncle wan cab involve in an accident. alhamdulilah,he safe. ((: so we just spent the night at my home ..thanks to ismail for sending me back home although his not feeling well ..hmm.

friday-13 march

last friday night went ton with shirley,squid nd papan ..nearly asleep bt then squid msg-ed asked to ton. lazy but then was bored ..having some fun but yet boring. we're suppose to stay awake but some how in the middle,shirley fall asleep ..aiyoh. papan was damnly funny luh.his laughter/jokes make me awake. around 6.30 we went home ...

2009-03-13T20:08:00.004+08:00

*UNBEARABLE condition

ii hate my condition right now! damn.
back to sch yesterday. was so excited to meet my dearest classmates after being absent for quite sometime ..
but then,this fucking stupid thingy on my leg insist me to go home! c****
even ms.yeo nd principal was shocked to see it. ii know it was super ugly. hmm ..but nothing could be done. just have to bear with it for the next few weeks,perhap a month luh! then have to make my way back home. ms.yeo advised to consult the same doctor again. actually,it getting worse after ii applied the cream that the poly has given me. the swollen nd itchyness make me out of control. squid been reminding me not to scratch but i'm sorry the temptation pulled me to do so. ((: went to poly with squid again! he insisted luh. he said-"i want to take care of you. its doesn't bother me at all." errr .....fyn whatever.
but then he came late. but reasonable,he has to meet his cousin ..
ii enquired to consult on the same doct but at the last min,ii was told to changed room. f***
hoping for a good news this time but then,nupe. ii was told that the affected area would take sometime to recover. the leg cell are too excited thus it over react towards the cream. causing the affected area swollen nd turn more red. sickening luh!
yesterday after poly,me nd squid procide to usual port. slack slack slack!
till something distract my attention. hmm ..but ii wont be commenting on it.
*only yu nd me.

lazy to post actually but dearest 'shirley baby'-named given by hairi,told me to update. so ya. nothing much ii did/happen while i'm in this condition ..hmm. tomorrrow i'm packed with some activities. in the morning going for soccer match with-squid nd co. around afternoon,mamat asked to watch hym training at woodland-yet to confirm. syka baby msg-ed just now asking to accompany her to watch a lasselle play @ 2pm but ii don't think could make it ..hmm. sorry darling. (: then at night will be going E.C with fam ..mama nd nenna wanted to picnic by the seaside. will update more pics,ya? gona buzz off to bed soon. the medicine really cause drowness. mucch loove people!

A DATE TO BE REMEMBERED
-13march,12.06am ..
thanks for the concern. unexpected that theres still a thought of yu on me ..appreciated. although we're drifting apart nd having our own life,ii'll never forget the promises and memories we shared upon the stars ..yu're the greatest gift that ii ever had. but the egoism is killing me. i'm sorry for treating you that way. don't blame yourself of what has happened to me ..just treasure everything that you have right now. live your life to the fullest ..my dear friend,yu'll never be replace .. *crying

(theSWEET WORDS)

You are friendly,kind and caring
Sensitive,loyal and understanding
Humorous, fun,secure and true
Always there... yes that's you.

Special,accepting,exciting and wise
Truthful and helpful,with honest blue eyes
Confiding, forgiving,cheerful and bright
Yes that's you...not one bit of spite.

You're one of a kind,different from others
Generous,charming,but not one that smothers
Optimistic,thoughtful,happy and game
But not just another...in the long chain.

Appreciative,warm and precious like gold
Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old
You'll always be there,I know that is true
I'll always be here...always for you.

sincerely to: CANDYboo nd shirleyBABY ((:

2009-03-10T21:12:00.007+08:00

10 march: Day 2

its was the day 2 of Adam Khoo workshop but ii didn't turn up. woke up late ..f***
then decided to go poly for consultation on my leg as i'm having rashes nd had a big red scar of a plaster ..squid insisted to accompany me. so meet hym @ 9.45 ..by the time we reached,poly was damn pack luh! gosh. terlalu luh sesak. isk. ape penyakit aje org org nih ade ..*wondering
luckily ii brought my lappy along. so sat at the benches outside the poly,using the lappy. squid wanted to read my blog. checking out if ii ever gossip about hym. haha! ade ade aje si mangkok tuu. ((: haha. for about half an hour we waited,finally ours turn. the news that really hurt me. 'i'm allergic to plaster!!' )): s***** doctor! ii even fought over this matter with the doctor. ii love plaster and it been quite sometime ii been using plaster but nothing serious like this occur before. yet he kept saying,'your skin is sensitive.' whatever luh mr.doct! hmmp. me nd squid then fetch shirley from sch nd we went for lunch at KFC-r.p ..super damn bored luh. headed off to usual slacking port ..sat nd chat with the rest for awhile. finally,could see hairi. been missing hym-his love,care,concern nd super lame joke luh! hahaa. FLIRT with hym for the whole day! haas. but to certain extent aje! his my cousin okay! play soccer with-wak,hairi nd mamat. kecoh! till wak said,'mai ganas!' haha. (: but then,ii injured my leg again. something has stuck into my feet nd cause it to numb nd bloated. damn disgusting luh! hairi helped me to dick it out. looked awful nd painful. buzz off around 7+ ..reached home,bath ...bla..bla..bla...bla... after blogging going to sleep. too tired. gonna have a looong day tomorrow ...hais.

i'm sorry. Didn't mean to treat yu that way ..but your behaviour reminds me of him ..I pondered if yu would be like him one day ..hmm. i seeking forgiveness if ever my attitude/behaviour did hurt yu. unintentionally to do so ..but no matter how hard life may pull us down,we gonna go through it as one,love! (:
PROMISES are meant to be broken.

2009-03-10T00:12:00.008+08:00

9march-Day 1 ...

having a three days-day camp under Adam Khoo company's. today was the first day and it was superb funn! in the morning aje. then then then ...there's this one mat which is our trainee's helper-iskandar. dearest sue kept talking about hym. haha. she even said,"he's registered" by her. hoho. sue sue sue! but he's not bad luh cumer dher rendah siket. hahaha! (: the whole day being sitting inside the air-conditional room. damnly cold nd bored. some more ii didnt bring any jacket along. luckly syed lend me his jacket. thanks dude! me,aidil nd alex was playing around. haha. we even took some pic while the lesson is going on .. ((: reached home,bath then msg squid while posting this bloody post. nd goin to bed soon. tired!

no doubt,I'm yours! ((:

If time could stand still,I’d freeze it here ..
So you’d always hold me,close and near ..
In your arms,where I’m meant to be,
Filled with the perfect love you’ve given me .

A bond so strong,a hold so tight,
To know you’re the one;my ‘Mr. Right’ ..
A blessing sent from up above,
In you I’ve found my one true love ..

Our lives entwined to be as one,
Upon this journey we’ve just begun.
Where you and I will find no less,
Than eternal love and happiness ..

FAMOUS PROSTITUDE-such a cheap slut.

that lady,do you have any idea on how bad yu looked when yu're trying to flirt with some one which happen to be your ENERMY,x-boyfriend?? haas. opps! forgotten! prostitude like yu dont seem to care about all that right?? haha! such a pity. no pride. no dignity. ((: regret that i once called yu a friend of mine perhap yu aren't deserve to be my friend. trying to replace me by puting up such a act? hah! disgusting! yu just got the wrong way to FLIRT nor PLEASE that guy. i know my x better! he wont go for a girl like yu. so no matter how hard yu're trying to seduce hym,his not dead to fell on your trap,slut! get the right way/person for your next game! if yu ever has the mind to make me jealous or what so ever,,forget it! ii dont give it a damn luh! i''ve gone through more than what yu just started to going through ..hais. pity girl. yu dont get what yu always wanted but yet yu're making up stories nd telling the world as if yu got it. hah! no originality. following others people nd keep commenting on others but yet didnt bother to look upon yourself. yu're much worse than those ladies that yu been talking about all this while. ms.slut,may yu live your life to the fullest. hoping none of the guys that yu know would treat yu like a doll again. haaas!

2009-03-08T23:17:00.005+08:00

*GUARDS of the day-zubair nd wak

*reflection of us ..
*ismail nd me-candid by shirley ..
*wak,zubir nd shirley:
*drama scene:

6 march:

straight away went home after sch. skipped p.t.m talks ..lazy to go. anyway,ii was damn late. promised to meet at 2pm but then reached home almost 1.30! damn. ii messed my wardrobe over again. as usual,my habit keep changing at the last min. the rest was waiting for me especially squid. keep msg-ing,bile nak keluar?? haha. paham paham aje lu perempuan punye siap kan bercinta siket ..hehe. maaf ye? hmm ..meet shirley nd we took bus to interchg.
went queensway with-ismail,shahrul nd girlfriend,wak,papan,shirley nd zubir ..was lost at queenstown area. nih semue shahrul nyer pasal. action tahu jalan ..hmmp!

ii thought only ladies/women would took more than an hour to get a stuff. but then ii realised guys too having the same attittude. like squid nd shahrul! just to find a tight and soccer boot took us nearly 2hr. and more than 6round at the same level. mangkok betol! bought their stuff then went to hougang. planned to play pool but then last min,cancel. so went slacking aje. such a boring and annoying day out. through out the day,shahrul nd his girl keep quarelling. hmmp! irratating.

*me nd the player ..(:

*zubir nd his'anak angkat' ..haha. cuute!
7 march:

went to accompany squid nd co to bowen sec. they having match @ bowen sec ..hees.
was a last min plan. woke up at 3pm due to squid msg asking to tag along ..he fetching me at 3.3o. damn! 30mins to get ready!! hmmp. nearly to 4pm meet them at cp interchange ..
game started at 5.30 ..nearly to 7 games end. guess what??! the score was 2-1!! they won! squid open the first score! wooooo!! gave hym a big big hug! haha. ((: then went r.m for dinner at l.j.s ..aidil was super funny luh. hmm ..then went home.

today:

woke up at 6 in the evening! was super tired luh! had dinner at cp with fam nd nenna ..bought my laapy bag. then went home ..so here ii m posting. ((:

*squid,ii appreciate your confession nd dedication. ((: well,everything just started ..

Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real ...

*sincerely,yours. (:

2009-03-05T23:25:00.003+08:00

-absent from sch today. damn.
ii need rest and some space. there's a lot of things being playing through my mind ..
none understand my situation ..yesterday night,went to anchorvale CC. with dearest lappy accompany me throughout the night ..had my supper while surfing the net. being there since midnight to 7am ..lamer ehk? haha. its the best way to cheer urself up. all alone doing ur own stuff. ((: nobody cares.

for goodness sake,ii hate hypocrites. why are there such person in this world? there don't deserve to be called human indeed an animal! hah. whatever suit yu luh bitch. i'm tired entertaining yu all this while. longlasting happiness with your friends which yu used to called them a slut. perhap,yu are one of them too. (:

woke up @ 3 plus. syka msg asking whtr following her or not. actually was damn tired to get up but then wanted to have some fun so ii insisted to tag along. hoho. went to novena then tamp. at tamp,syka went shopping whereas me nd wanie playing around. haha! disturbing one another. wanie kept saying she wanted a baby. aiyoh. too obsessed with baby clothes just now. haha. we headed home at 10 due to some unwanted incident happened. hmmp. pissed off.
reached home and received a msg from squid. he wanted me to accompay hym buying some soccer stuff @ queensway tomorrow. hmm ..so ya. anyway,im having flu right now. gosh. cant stop sneezing. ish. sleeping soon. squid darh bising nih. will upload more pic. nyte!

2009-03-04T22:54:00.004+08:00

hey. i'm back to sch today.
hmm ..nothing much happen luh.
they are discussing about the class tee nd chalet.
having class chalet on the 17-19 march ..on the 18 we're having cip @ pasir ris. damn! 5hr kkae.

anyway,that doesnt matter much to me ..but im pissed off about the class tee actually. honestly. but ii wont be commenting much on it yet. just wait for the result of the tee ..hmm.
to those in charge,,be well prepared to be an organiser. ii not trying to say that im better than yu. ii knew ii not that really good on it but at least ii don't get things messed up nd cause alot of unsatisfying among the peeps. hmm ..anyway,hairi nd along fetch me from sch just now.

he insisted to fetch me luh. yu guys may have seen us just now,nd get this straight,we're not couple/flings or what so ever. he is just a best friend of mine. coincidencely,he is my cousin. well,what a small world! (: then we headed off to our usual port. slack with them for awhile ..had dinner @ kfc with bodyguards-along,wak,zubir,is nd shahrul. haha. funn nd kecoh luh! reach home @ 10.30. ((; hoho. till then,nyte.

2009-03-03T23:11:00.005+08:00

Sweetheart.im back! haha. make a new blog ..deleted the old blog due to some personal reason.hmm ..to my loove,man nd ladies do drop by nd link me kkae? 8) thanks.

Life getting meaningful. (: with the loove ones around me,ii have learnt to move on. miracle do happen. Always expect the unexpected ..hmm. Anyway did nothing much today.went slacking with the guys ..haha. shirley kept calling as well as aizat ..they wanted me to join them. well,hairi grandfather just passed away. so to chill hym up,we accompany hym .. damn tiring. was from changi hospital to tamp-nenny's home rush back to sengkang. after all its worth it ..haha. Hairi,z,aizat nd shirley accompanied me to had my dinner@kfc ..hmm. then back home. so here ii m posting. ((: *back to sch tomorrow. hoho.

mama bought this lil cute cupcake @ prima deli-yummy!
(fav-vanilla nd choc)
some candid snap by shirley nd mamat..

*mamat nd me-just too lazy to entertain hym. haha.
*he sang for me till its start to drizzle. alamak!
*with shirley nd zubir.haha. -muke maintain ehk.
*just a stupid pose by us.